Episode 25
The happy life the heavens granted me
I destroyed with my own hands.
I know.
The child is gone.
You are suffering.
No matter how sad I am, it can't be
compared to Jing Wan's suffering.
What Jing Wan lost
is greater than my own loss.
When you first made your choice,
you shouldn't have relied on good luck.
You should have anticipated the price you would have to pay.
You achieved what you wanted.
You have a powerful army,
and the support of the entire population.- Yes...
I own so many things now.
Today I realised
what I wanted the most,
what I wanted to hold on to the most,
I couldn't have them.
What do you plan to do next?
I wanted to keep Jing Wan.
Keep her by my side at all costs.
But I was not able
to reclaim her heart back.
I have lost her completely.
Xin Zhi.
Do you know that
when she started to bleed profusely,
to the extent that her life was hanging on by a tiny thread,
I stayed downstairs.
I was scared to go up to see her.
At that moment I felt
like a complete madman.
I really cared about that baby.
But she will never know that
the person I care about the most is her.
As it was our child,
I loved it with mad abandonment.
Initially
I thought of it as a chance.
I thought that because of the child,
she would forgive me and listen.
Now
the only bond connecting us is broke.
The truth is
I can't keep her anymore.
She cut off her ties with me
in such a final and heartbreaking way.
Madam.
Do you want to go in and take a rest?
I will keep guard here. If there is any news of Fourth Master, I will let you know immediately.
I will not go to sleep.
Why don't you go back first?
Reporting.
Regarding news about Fourth Master,
all our troops have returned and reported that they did not spot him anywhere.
Continue to search.- Yes!
Madam.
Jiang Ping.
What happened to Fourth Master?
Madam. Honestly, I...
Lieutenant Shen.
Since you insist on knowing, I won't hide it from you any longer.
Frankly, this is because Miss Yin
miscarried.
Fourth Master.
Come, help him in.
Come.
He's fine. He's just drunk.
Brother, thank you.
Take good care of him.
I know you are very sad. But...
you do not understand my own sorrow.
The pain will settle down sooner or later.
I believe with you by my side,
you will be happy.
Let bygones be bygones.
I won't lecture you or get angry
because
when the past dies
a new future will be born.
Starting today, you belong only to me.
No one will take you away from me.
Brother, wait.
What is it?
I would like you to take me to see Jing Wan.
I don't know where she is.
Stop lying to me.
Since youth, you have never been able to tell lies.
You definitely know where she is.
What's wrong? Are you afraid that I would harm her?
You wouldn't?
Don't worry. I have also been cruelly hurt before.
I won't touch her.
What makes you think I can trust you?
Brother. In your eyes,
do I look like a scorpio who stabs everyone?
Okay then. I will give you another explanation.
I won't hurt her because
if anything happens to her, Pei Lin would hate me for his whole life.
I am not foolish enough to destroy the happiness I obtained after so much trouble.
Do you believe me now?
Why do you want to meet her?
At this time, Pei Lin or you won't be able to comfort her.
Only a woman understands another woman.
I have faith she will rise up again after all that pain.
I'm going to meet her to help her.
It is time to close this chapter in our lives of all of us.
Wouldn't this benefit everyone?
Let's go.
Dad.
Mom.
Dad.
Mom!
- Jing Wan. - I'm cold.
Allow me.
Mom.
I'm cold.
Everything's fine.
With me here, everything is already in the past.
Why are you drinking during the day?
Didn't you drink enough yesterday?
Let's have another glass.
What? Female strategist and Commander of the Cheng Army
is now playing the role of a noble woman?
I will no longer be the strategist nor the Commander.
Starting now, I will only have one identity.
Being Mu Rong Feng's spouse.
Starting today, I have nothing to do with the Cheng Military.
I am going to be a good wife.
Do you like how I look right now?
Pei Lin. Believe me . I...
Why are you talking about this? Come, let's drink.
Jing Wan.
Jing Wan, are you feeling better?
Come.
Jing Wan.
The first time I met you,
you were also sick and lying in bed.
Your life was in danger. You were on the brink of death.
Your gunshot would was deep and you lost a lot of blood.
You never once cried out.
During that time,
you were very strong and brave.
Today, you are sick and lying in the bed again.
You have experienced much suffering.
I know this time, the pain,
exceeds that of the past.
Not only is your body hurting,
but you are heartbroken too.
I know that
no matter how I try to comfort you,
it will all be useless.
Perhaps, time will allow you to forget everything.
But Jing Wan, I want to tell you.
All human life is a miracle.
Being able to come to this world and live
is a very detailed process.
Just like a hundred-year-old tree,
flowers blossoming in the spring, or short-living butterflies.
Whether in pain or happiness,
this is what we experience in life.
Therefore, no matter how hard it is,
we must try to live through this miraculous journey.
Where is my wine?- Give it to me.
- I'm told you. - Tell me.
Speak. Speak. - You are going to make me drunk?
It's not that easy.
I can hold my alcohol better than women.
If you don't believe me, let's compete again another day.
You are the one who said it. It is not that hard.
Fool. Where are we?
Fool.
This is Qianping!
The flowers on the ground...
Look. It's the smell of flowers.
Who says there is a smell of flowers? You are drunk.
There is.
The flowers are everywhere.
You have lost. There are no flowers here at all.
There are flowers everywhere.
Jing Wan.
Pei Lin.
I'm Jin Zhi.
I'm your wife.
Jing Wan.
Pei Lin.
I'm hurting.
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What would you like to eat? I will cook it in the kitchen.
No need. You can eat on your own.
Where are you going?
I'm going to the study.
Pei Lin.
Xin Zhi. Will you believe me?
Coming here I had only one thought in mind.
To come here and see Jing Wan.
I kept thinking of her
and forgot about everything that happened.
Since she was here all alone,
I wanted to come here to be with her.
But when I am finally arrived
and saw her sick and unmoving in bed,
I suddenly realised
that she and I
no longer have any relationship.
I can't be with her.
She doesn't need me anymore.
Pei Lin. Don't over think things.
Jing Wan is much better.
There shouldn't be any problems. Don't worry.
She took sleeping pills last night and is still asleep.
Stay with her.
Jing Wan.
If you weren't sleeping,
and were able to see me,
and listen to what I had to say,
I wouldn't have the courage to face you.
Last night,
I was drunk.
Jin Zhi and I...
I thought it was you.
It happened against my will.
I can see clearly now that
I am an undeserving man.
I was not fit to have our child.
I have destroyed all our happiness.
Because of this
I don't want
to ever forgive myself.
Jing Wan.
I want to tell you that
when
I lost you, only then did I realised
how deep love and hate is.
I finally understand
just how important
you are to me.
Without you,
I can't do anything.
Jing Wan.
This may be the last time we meet.
How will I be able to live the rest of my life without you?
How am I going to live?
Newspapers for sale.
The Chengzhou - Yingzhou War has ended!
Give me one.
Newspapers for sale.
The war has ended.
The Chengzhou-Yingzhou War ended.
Madam.
Let me do it.
There is some chicken soup downstairs. Serve it.
Miss Yin. You must wonder
why I'm here with you.
You should know that Pei Lin is someone full of pride.
Since things have already come to this point,
he doesn't have courage to face you.
As for me, as his wife,
I think I should be here with you instead.
Madam, the chicken soup is here.
Be brave and stand up again.
Prove that you have the courage again.
Drink this. It's good for your health.
When your health has recovered, start a new life.
I would like to help Jing Wan go overseas. You probably don't have any objections.
If she agrees, of course I wouldn't have any objections.
I don't have to worry then.
I thought that you would oppose me.
Although I don't have any objections,
I do have one condition.
What is it?
I want to go with her until she has completely recovered.
You want to go with her?
Who are you to her? Why are you going with her?
She is need of someone to help her now.
For that reason, I want to take care and protect her.
There is no other reason.
Brother, don't be stupid.
Do you think that by being with her, she will be thankful and fall in love with you?
Do you think I'm like you?
You used underhanded tactics to get what you want.
I'm being nice to her and never thought of getting anything in return.
I don't believe you telling me you don't want her.
Are you that righteous?
Is using someone to achieve one's goals still considered love?
Brother. Sometimes, I don't understand you.
We have the same blood flowing in us but why are we so different?
Jin Zhi, for you love is synonymous with possession.
I am afraid your misinterpretation of love will tear you down.
Whatever I want, I must get.
I have been like since I was young. I will never change.
Jin Zhi.
I hope that one day, you will let go with both your hands.
Don't live such a tired life.
Miss Yin is here at the garden so early.
Looks like your health has recovered.
Madam Mu Rong. Thank you for coming to see me.
In-law Lan.
I don't think you want to wear these old clothes.
I ordered some new ones for you.
I wonder if the colour and styles of these clothes
are to your liking.
Leave first.
I think we should have a good talk.
What is there
to talk about between us?
You are right.
We don't have anything to talk about.
We both hold grudges. It's either you die or I die.
But things have already changed.
You removed yourself from our fight by your own will.
Honestly speaking, I should thank you.
What you did spared me a lot of energy.
Here's a traveling pass,
passport, visa and ship tickets.
I heard that Pei Lin gave you RMB$1 million last year.
Also, I will prepare RMB$1 million.
He wants you to go to France. I want you to go there too.
Don't worry. A car will pick you up tomorrow.
My brother just happens to also be going to France to settle some matters.
I told him to take care of you.
I know you will probably think my action is heartless
but frankly speaking, I'm worried.
Even though you and Pei Lin are not in a relationship anymore,
I still seem to worry.
But you don't have to worry. I won't harm you.
By going there, it will benefit everyone.
I know you won't harm me.
Because if I die, Mu Rong Feng will forever
only love and miss me.
That's why you don't want me to die.
You are such an intelligent woman.
It is a pleasure to deal with you.
It's a pity that God didn't give us the opportunity to become friends.
You are much smarter than me, Madam.
I hope your dreams will come true.
Thank you for your comments. I'm leaving first.
Fourth Master. Do you want me
to check on Miss Yin's condition first?
No need.
Fourth Master. You are really not going to see Miss Yin?
I don't have the courage to see her.
I don't have a valid reason to see the one I hurt.
Fourth Master. I know
you occupied yourself with the war and forgot about everything.
Being occupied with only military affairs, you were not able to think about much else.
You thought that in doing so, you could forget Miss Yin?
Yes. I didn't want to think about her.
I didn't want to think about what I did to her.
How much I must have hurt her.
But the war already ended.
Peace is here at last.
Now all I have are our memories,
whether they are happy or sad.
I think I will never be able to forget them.
Fourth Master. You should carefully reconsider.
You are now the Commander in Chief of 12 provinces on the north bank of the river.
Your status
makes everyone in the country envious.
But this is not what I wanted.
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Looks like Miss Yin is recovering well.
Fourth Master. You shouldn't worry too much.
Jiang Ping. I know she wants to leave this place.
I can see it clearly in her face.
She has already made up her mind.
Perhaps, tomorrow
she will disappear from my life.
If Fourth Master doesn't want Miss Yin to leave,
I can send someone to watch her.
I would only be possessing her
but not her heart.
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